It's been two long weeks of no sleep and sadness and crying and wondering when all this will finally get out of my life. I recognise that there is much that I love in my life and much that is wonderful, beautiful, joyful, and inspiring as well. Sometimes it's easy to wonder why the people who say they care show that they don't and the people that can't say anything at all show they care.

And then you put on the latter's soft, sweet smelling tee-shirt from high school and climb into your empty bed.